My Beautiful Misery

My Beautiful Misery

Marcos P.

Heard/Alexandria Detention Center writing contest, August, 2019

Its anguish, and painful sorrow flowing through

my blood stream.

Every time she leave the visitation swear my soul

bleed.

You ever see a rose bloom in a dark crease

thats me when my baby say she love me.

Her eyes tell me what she feel when her spirit is

hurting.

Cry to me and tell me all your issues I’m at your

service.

My smile is a curtain cause I can’t leave

her burden worrying about the worthless jailbird

in a caged nest.

Hyperventilating, my chest cave’s in

When I’m all alone in my cell

I miss her soft lips kisses taste like daises.

on the phone with her, the passion in her

make me laugh and giggle said its one minute

left now I wanna cry a river.

Your the word real in its purest form.

No human I know is authentic the way you counsel.

You were the damsel in distress and I’m the hero

who flew and caught you, without a parrachute

Cause when I seen that brilliant smile almost

went blind and I almost dropped you.

Your feet touch the ground at your residence.

Already I’m thinking backwards how the angels sent you

or they threw you out heaven window and

I came to rescue.

You hear the pain I expose when I vent to you

Pretty young thing make my feelings turn the color blue

Relaxation, wasn’t regulations, just recreation

when I chilled with you.

Them suckas still hating cause I’m ugly and

your beautiful

No Dej loaf you my sainity a halo.

When prison walls constricted on me,

you was my, devilish angel

I’m a connoisseur of her parts she’s my

noah’s ark.

Battling wars were back to back brawling

If I slip, in a deep pit, who you think will be,

right there to save me her, hands and knees

crawling.

My women is a gorgeous thing God’s

sacred gift.

I wouldn’t want to wake up if shawty did

not exist

If we die and disappear I hope our souls

both lift, Look boo

I’ll by lying if I said I didn’t love you.

Trying to get you out my head but I can’t hide

the truth.

Words got qouted we done spoke it X & O’s we use

X & O letters written X & O sweet lyrics,

I’m lost for words can’t let her know

Cause this what happens when you let a hitta

get to close

Or when you let me kiss your body head to

your toes

You done gave me the key and I unlocked the door

I love the way you stare at me peircing my soul.

We intertwine like margaritas you my aquafina

would call you mammacita but you more a classic chicka

Who ever lost you is deppressed cause your more

than a keeper.

I pray for you before I rest I hope I never leave

you.  Money don’t intrigue you.  You see between

the evil without you I catch a fever

You my blue sky to a cloudy day

or the sunshine when the rain fades.

No matter what they talking about don’t ever go away.

Cause I get in my feelings when you walk away.

Don’t leave me like a stranger

I know that time can change you

I threw away my banger to get your heart stuck in tangles

Every time I think about you a star blows up

I know you feel the same about me, don’t betray

my trust.

Hate Dies, Love Arrives

Hate Dies, Love Arrives

Abdullah A.

Heard/Alexandria Detention Center writing contest, August, 2019

Happiness, What is happiness

When I smile at others,

And they smile back at me

That is happiness.

Your smile can change my mind

When anger wants to take control

It can loosen the tension I feel

Deep down in my soul.

When I smile at others

It affects the way they act

Quite often I’ll discover

That they are smiling back.

My smile sends out a message

 About the love I share today

My love gets stronger

Each and every time that I pray

My smile is contagious

When it’s spread around

My smile can lift you up

And will never let you down

My smile is like a package

As if it’s fragile

I don’t know about tactics

But I know about smiles

My smile is passed along

As I travel through time,

I can’t help to eliminate friction

But I can help your mind

Is my smile a test

I don’t know

But my smile is the best

Which I don’t have to express.

When I want to bless someone

If only for a while

I show the love within my heart

By giving them a smile.

So with all my heart I smile

Therefor love arrives

And then whom I don’t smile

The hate arrives.

Hard

Hard
Andy M.
Heard/Alexandria Detention Center writing contest, August, 2019

Its hard to see the light when nothing but darkness surrounds me,
Its hard to feel her love at the visits when it’s a glass in between,
Its hard to feel at all when pain has made you indifferent
Its hard to call people friends when everyone keeps switching.
Its hard to go home when all these people keep snitching.
Its hard to talk to my kids when my baby mother keep tripping
Its harder to say its my fault cuz I keep going to jail and going missing,
Im a deadbeat dad and it’s hard to admit it,
Its hard to see my mom at the visits and tell her I should have listened,
Its hard to see my future knowing that I have lost my vision
Its hard to keep a grip when my thoughts keep slipping
Its hard to go to sleep when my mind keeps racing
Its hard to lay down at night cuz I keep pacing
Its hard, lifes hard, I kept saying
Its hard, hard, hard, hard!
Its hard not to stress out!
When it feels like my life has caved

Blackfoot Apostle

Eric Stewart, Arlington County Detention Center

 There’s many reasons to liberate on this behalf.

There’s a percentage within me that was explained by grandma.

From genetics to attributes, hazel eyes and good hair.

Within the adults it blossoms, still there.

It’s barely noticeable, as I get older I see with flair.

Something else that caught me by surprise was the time and place of grandma’s confession.

She was precise, authentic and peaceful when she opened a book of sequel.

Had an album with pictures and names of people.

Words can’t explain how the wisdom was a sudden shock as a nineteen year old lad.

I was so used to being ignored, but her eyes told me to hold fast (sit-down).

Always knew I was a leader and the intuition was obvious.

Growing up I was head-strong, fairly conscious.

Always wanted to change a situation to make things better for my dreams.

As the middle-child being courageous is what grandma saw in me.

Being called “Curious George” because of asking a lot of questions,

I had to find out myself and I did being aggressive.

Politics and friends was a “Head on” interest with passion.

Became agitated faster.

Wanted to lead my Generation but

Snap Back to reality.

Being too young I had to settle being unhappy.

Had broken laws, But education will also hail those to follow.

Grandma’s the Blackfoot Indian and I am her apostle.

Truly,

Dre