My Beautiful Misery
Heard/Alexandria Detention Center writing contest, August, 2019
Its anguish, and painful sorrow flowing through
my blood stream.
Every time she leave the visitation swear my soul
You ever see a rose bloom in a dark crease
thats me when my baby say she love me.
Her eyes tell me what she feel when her spirit is
Cry to me and tell me all your issues I’m at your
My smile is a curtain cause I can’t leave
her burden worrying about the worthless jailbird
in a caged nest.
Hyperventilating, my chest cave’s in
When I’m all alone in my cell
I miss her soft lips kisses taste like daises.
on the phone with her, the passion in her
make me laugh and giggle said its one minute
left now I wanna cry a river.
Your the word real in its purest form.
No human I know is authentic the way you counsel.
You were the damsel in distress and I’m the hero
who flew and caught you, without a parrachute
Cause when I seen that brilliant smile almost
went blind and I almost dropped you.
Your feet touch the ground at your residence.
Already I’m thinking backwards how the angels sent you
or they threw you out heaven window and
I came to rescue.
You hear the pain I expose when I vent to you
Pretty young thing make my feelings turn the color blue
Relaxation, wasn’t regulations, just recreation
when I chilled with you.
Them suckas still hating cause I’m ugly and
No Dej loaf you my sainity a halo.
When prison walls constricted on me,
you was my, devilish angel
I’m a connoisseur of her parts she’s my
Battling wars were back to back brawling
If I slip, in a deep pit, who you think will be,
right there to save me her, hands and knees
My women is a gorgeous thing God’s
I wouldn’t want to wake up if shawty did
If we die and disappear I hope our souls
both lift, Look boo
I’ll by lying if I said I didn’t love you.
Trying to get you out my head but I can’t hide
Words got qouted we done spoke it X & O’s we use
X & O letters written X & O sweet lyrics,
I’m lost for words can’t let her know
Cause this what happens when you let a hitta
get to close
Or when you let me kiss your body head to
You done gave me the key and I unlocked the door
I love the way you stare at me peircing my soul.
We intertwine like margaritas you my aquafina
would call you mammacita but you more a classic chicka
Who ever lost you is deppressed cause your more
than a keeper.
I pray for you before I rest I hope I never leave
you. Money don’t intrigue you. You see between
the evil without you I catch a fever
You my blue sky to a cloudy day
or the sunshine when the rain fades.
No matter what they talking about don’t ever go away.
Cause I get in my feelings when you walk away.
Don’t leave me like a stranger
I know that time can change you
I threw away my banger to get your heart stuck in tangles
Every time I think about you a star blows up
I know you feel the same about me, don’t betray