Merry Toth, Friends of Guest House, June 14, 2021
My Journey Began
My journey began as a loved child
Spoiled and disciplined
Then when I became the age of choosing,
I chose the wrong path.
The path I chose was fun.
There was a boat ahead
And when I got in that boat,
I wasn’t given any oars.
One day I knew
One day after drifting,
That time had gotten away from me
And I looked into the water
And realized I was becoming an old woman.
I knew that I had let life get away from me.
I looked to the land and saw my family.
While I was drifting down the rocky stream
Filled with darkness and struggle,
They had light and laughter I could hear.
I had missed so much.
I yelled for help.
Someone came and got me.
But when I was thrown a rope
I had consequences to pay.
Determined to save the only life I could
The consequences I had to pay
For the life I had no direction
But darkness had its consequences
Waiting at the shore.
Put in a cell where I could reflect
On the life I did not have and the things I had done
While drifting in the dark with no oars.
A demon had attached itself to me,
And directed my life and had chains on me,
but invisible they were,
but there all the same.
This time in a cell gave me time to think
About what to do now.
A new life awaited me.
Was I going to get back in that boat
And put the chains back on, or
Choose a new path?
A path full of life,
No longer being controlled by the demon that was my closest companion,
but my worst enemy who only wanted my soul.
Today, I have chosen life.
The years in the boat adrift I learned many lessons.
I am able to be a strong woman.
I have chosen God to direct my life.
No more chains, but
Freedom at last.