Humanization

Humanization

by Marlow Terry

Second place, Poetry, Heard/Alexandria Detention Center writing contest, July 2022

 

If I gave up my position

as the provider does that make

me less than a man?

Am I wrong for feeling like

no one can take care of mine

better than I can?

Am I wrong for feeling by any

means this has to work & if

it doesn’t by any means I

master dirt?

How about when I’m laid off

& my bills are not paid off &

the workforce won’t give my

criminal history a day off?

When the program say no the

budgets to low

am I wrong for not wanting to

ask for thier help anymore?

If I decide to break the law without

harming a soul & my situation changed because

of it do I deserve parole?

If I don’t understand do I have to be

looked at as if I can’t improve

with eviction on the line children on

my mind should I be feeling I have

nothing to lose?

When you fear what’s in your mind

is truth & its design is for you

only to relate to a black man’s shoes

then we don’t want your sympathy but

respect your empathy humanizing the

reality in which a black man moves.

Obstructed Justice

Obstructed Justice

by Carlos McKethan

 Third place, Poetry, Heard/Alexandria Detention Center writing contest, July 2022

 

Obstruction of justice, but then I ask,

What’s been obstructed?

And whose justice has been violated?

If I recall correctly, the last time that I checked, it was just – us.

Us meaning the souls that have been lost to the system.

The misguided who weren’t provided for,

the misjudged who when trapped in difficult situations didn’t budge,

the mischievous, the misbehaved

who could care less about the grave.

Simply a reactionary manchild who was only taught to be brave

and the misunderstood

who did what they could.

You see, never being one to judge but I can tell when my equilibrium is off,

and the odds aren’t in my favor,

the scale being so lopsided it’s as if I’m walking sideways,

smack into a dead end.

Chaos, where’s its dark and hell is hot,

Can you feel the heat?

Cause in this journey called life, being discriminate ain’t at all discreet.

So I fight my battles with knowledge,

Cause I “know” that “ledge”

and spent plenty of time on that edge.

The edge where emotions are barred

and I’m mentally scarred,

nursing my wounds with my wisdom,

showing my strength thru ways and actions,

understanding the psychology of it all,

so has my justice been obstructed?

Is it rage against the machine?

You see, there’s always been rage but we seem unable to defeat

the machine,

the well oiled machine,

the privy to all information machine,

the worldwide conglomerate machine.

Big Brother.

The biggest brother,

one that’s most definitely from another mother,

eyes everywhere, covering all crevices,

never missing a beat,

arms so long they can touch you from anywhere,

never caring about privacy.

As the world is it’s rivalry.

Not giving a “uhhh”! a while forever spying on me,

building up such rage.

Rage that has been pent up but has been poked so much.

The sleeping giant no longer lays, it’s arisen,

packing the courage of gladiators who only knows one mission:

Battle!

Fights to the death,

but the fight I’m dealing with can’t be won physically,

one must be equipped with mental ammunition,

 as we dealing with psychological warfare,

a battle of the minds,

so the mind, body and spirit has to be conditioned,

conditioned to go the distance,

in a never ending battle where obstacles are consistent.

so we learned to navigate around and in between them,

staying forever resistant,

so don’t ever get it twisted and lose vision of the bigger picture:

freedom of the mind

freedom from the fetters that held us down,

and yet I still show resistance,

riding FO.D.A.C.A.U.S.E,

staying down and diligent,

somewhat militant,

still holding resentment.

Resentment for my justice being obstructed,

while the machine is steadily winning while maintaining its function

and still causing rambunction.

Now, ain’t that a conjunction?

Yeah, “obstructed justice”….

Peace.

Who Am I?

Who Am I?

(translated from its original Spanish language submission)

Rivera Dario Alonso Gomez

 Second place, Fiction, Heard/Alexandria Detention Center writing contest, July 2022

While I was driving home in the middle of peak hour traffic I thought about how absurd my life is. Who am I? Only one more among millions trapped in the routine of daily life from work to home. The problems, the children, the bills to pay, all is monotony, a life without meaning. My wife is no longer the beautiful youth whom I married, she has gained weight and her hair is turning white and to be honest I’m not the same either, my hair has fallen out and left me bald, a huge belly has grown and don’t even mention these eyeglasses without which I don’t see well.

I felt pretty depressed but finally arrived at my home and now I was so tired I just wanted to sleep for many days without anyone bothering me, so I went directly to my bed and I laid down. Suddenly I felt pain in my chest that woke me up, it was very dark and I was sweating.

“Marta, Marta,” I call my wife, but she does not answer. I try to get up but the pain in my chest is sharper, stronger. I call my wife again but again she doesn’t respond. I reach out for her next to me but she isn’t there, I am alone, and now there is no pain but my feet are cold and slowly the cold climbs up my body.

With difficulty I am able to sit, I look in the darkness for the lamp on my night table to turn on the light but it isn’t there. I don’t understand what is happening, I remained sitting, waiting for my eyes to adjust to the darkness. Finally I rose and began to walk with my hands in front of me, looking for the door, but I walked and walked and couldn’t find the door, nor the wall, I don’t understand what is happening, I must be dreaming, my eyes begin to adjust to the darkness and in the distance I saw what looked like the shadow of person who walked with downcast eyes. I approached him and stopped him.

“My friend, excuse me, could you tell me where we are, what is this place?”

“Friend? I don’t remember knowing you, I have no friends.”

“That’s ok, please forgive me, but tell me please, where are we?”

“Well, here.”

“But where is here?”

“Where we are, that’s clear!”

“Do you not know where we are?”

“I know very well where I am, the one who is lost appears to be you.”

And he simply went on his way.

This left me more confused. In the distance I could see many more shadows and I walked toward them. They were all the same, people or better said the shadows of people, walking from one side to the other with downcast eyes and no real direction and no expression at all. I didn’t know what to do, I didn’t dare stop anyone, just kept walking in a straight line expecting to run into something but I walked a long way and nothing happened. I could only see darkness and shadows, but what place is this and where am I?

Tired and desperate I fell to my knees. I thought of my wife and my children, where could they be at this moment. Suddenly I saw a light, very pale but it was there. Perhaps there is an exit there. I rose and ran toward the light.

When I was near it was a person like the shadows but this one shone in the darkness and very emotionally I asked him, “My friend, could you tell me where I am, this is such a strange place?”

“Can it be that you still don’t know, Andres?”

“How do you know my name, by chance do we know each other?”

“Of course we know each other.”

“But I don’t remember you, please tell me, where am I?”

“This is your heart, Andres.”

“My heart! You’re joking!”

“No Andres, this is not a joke.”

“And if this is my heart why is it so cold and dark? Could I be dead?”

“No, not yet, you’re not dead.”

“Then I don’t understand.”

“Well, Andres, your heart is cold and dark because that is how you have filled it… over the years.”

“And all these shadows — who are they?”

“Your preoccupations, your mistakes, your deceptions and your bitterness.”

“And who are you?”

“I am Love and there is still some light in me because there is still some love in your life, but every day I dim a little and one day I will be another shadow. Before, we had hope, faith, charity, but all those have been diminishing one by one, only I am left, but not for long.”

“Please don’t disappear, do something”

“Only you can do something, remember it is your heart.”

“But what do I do, tell me”

Love, Andres, Love.

And the light went out, and I was back in darkness and desperation.

What do I do? He told me that I should love. I have love in my life and I love my wife, I began to remember the day that I met her. I thought about how I felt when I went down on my knees to ask her to marry me, how emotional and nervous I was. Soon Love began to shine again, though dimly.

I remembered the day my son was born, and I held him in my arms for the first time, and the joy I felt.

Love shone a little more.

“This is working,” I said.

“Yes, Andres, it is working.”

Then I thought about my little daughter and her precious smile. And Love began to shine so brightly that everything was illuminated but at the same time it began to distance itself from me.

“Please don’t leave.”

Suddenly I felt  a blow on my chest and an electric current that coursed through my body and a flash that blinded me. I tried to open my eyes but some hands detained me.

“Love, is that you?”

“No, Mr. Andres, I am Doctor Rivera, don’t worry, everything is ok.”

“What happened?”

“You had a heart attack.”

“That explains the pain in my chest.”

“Yes, Mr. Andres. And when you arrived you had a second heart attack. You were clinically dead for five minutes and we have just resuscitated you so please be calm, I am going to make sure you are out of danger and will let you rest.”

Five minutes dead, I thought. For me it was an eternity.

“Doctor… and my family?”

“ They are outside, Mr. Andres, when you get out of Intensive Care we will give you a room and you will be able to see them.”

Finally after many checkups and nurses coming and going they gave me a room and let my family come in. Everyone advanced toward me, crying. I hugged them with all my might and I felt filled with Love.

At that moment I felt God in my life.

Thank you Father for giving me another opportunity. Now I know who I am.

I am Love.

The Last Cryptid

The Last Cryptid

by Trulynd W. Hall

Third place, Fiction, Heard/Alexandria Detention Center writing contest, July 2022

 “Is he dead?” the boy in a green tracksuit asks.

“Poke him with a stick again.” The girl with fiery red hair says while standing a safe distance away from the possibly dead body. The boy grabs a nearby twig and before he prods the lanky man stuck in the mud.

”Jay wait!” She exclaims. “What if he’s dead?”

“Jesse that’s what we’re trying to find out!” Jay tiredly expressed. Jay turns back to the body about to poke it.

“OK here goes.” He shakes his arms ready for the body’s reaction.

“Joy wait!” Jesse adds again. “What if…”

“Jesse please! Do you want me to poke it or not?” Joy asks while turning to Jesse. Only to find her now pale and pointing behind him. Jay made a guess to the reality behind his back. If it wasn’t a supposedly dead man walking it was way worse.

Jay nervously starts to turn around and witnesses the tall lanky body stand upright.

“He’s alive!” Jesse screams while flailing her arms in the air. The man didn’t look right, his proportions are out of place. Arms too long, legs too short and a particularly slim head. His left arm was twisted in the wrong direction as well.

“Are you OK?” chattered from Jay’s mouth. The man glances around before noticing his broken arm. He reaches for his arm.

“Stop it’s broken!” Jesse shouted in worry. Before her next sympathetic plea could release, the man grabs his arm and readjust it back in place with a loud snap in the process. The kids went and shuddered at the sight and sound.

“Hello?” Jay whimpered while backing away. Finally the man met their frames in his sight. His recently broken arm swings up and the kids flinch at the idea he was going to attack. Instead he reaches the back of his head and scratches the back of his shaggy hair. His baggy eyes meet theirs.

“Who are you brats?” he muttered.

“Brats!” Jesse shouts. “We found you lying in a ditch! Thought you were dead.! Jay let’s go! Never should have helped him!”

“You wanted to poke him, actually wanted ME to poke him,” Jay sarcastically added. Jesse gives him a glare that could cook bacon. The man interrupted the theatrics of the kids.

“It’s not safe here. Go home, he said while diving in his pockets. Jesse was about to add another angry retort but almost as if the man already knew her response, he cuts her off.

“No arguing, there’s something dangerous lurking in these woods.” He replies after pulling an object out of his dirty pants.

“Jay we’re outta here!  We don’t need to help some smelly old guy!” Jesse proceeds to stomp away. J fixates on the man’s hand which was now holding a yoyo.

“Jay let’s go!!” She shouts, already a few paces ahead of him. But Jay couldn’t look away, he felt like something amazing would happen in the next few moments.

“Jay Parker Williams!” Jesse voice yells from a distance. He hated when she used his full name. Jay turned around to berate her use of his middle name. That’s when it happened. As his back was turned a thunderous explosion boomed from behind him. The sound was loud enough to lift the kids a few inches in the air. Once again Jay looked at Jesse pointing with an even paler face them before.

“Jay. Don’t move.” Jesse mouthed. “Stay still.” Jay felt a breathy air behind him. His knees started to wobble and teeth chattered. He then heard a low growl right next to his ear. There was something behind him, something big and possibly hungry. A familiar voice yells sharply.

“Run it’s Bigfoot!” The lanky man starts while prepping his yo-yo. Jay finally glances back and sees the bigger than a bear, wilder than an ape creature looming over him. The man reiterates his command.

“Run!” He pleas to Jay.

“Hey! Hey! Over here smelly!” Jessie shouts waving her arms, attempting to look big. Bigfoot’s attention flies to her. Jesse frozen in fear attempts to flee but only manages to stumble to her feet. Jay in a hurry to save Jesse tosses rocks at the beast. The man from afar takes this chance a[nd] hurls the yoyo at Bigfoot. The rope was too long, yards long. It wraps around the beast leg stumbling it.

“Catch the yo-yo!” He shouts to at Jay. “Toss it around Bigfoot you two.” He added. The duo play catch with a yo-yo until Bigfoot was entangled in what seemed to be miles of rope. Bigfoot falls to the ground with a loud smash accompanied.

“Good job team!” The man gave a thumbs up.

“Team? Jesse snorted, waving her finger at his face.

“Is that really Bigfoot?” Jay asked, killing the argument. The man nodded. Jay’s eyes lit up!

“Cryptids are real?” Jay jumped gleefully, while Jesse rolled her eyes. The man makes a small smirk.

“Want to see?”

History of Mammals

History of Mammals

by Trulynd W. Hall

First place, Fiction, Heard/Alexandria Detention Center writing contest, July 2022

 *This is a work of fictional history. Any similarities are a coincidence.

The bell rung and the class was rumbling from chatter between the students. A door embedded in a larger door swung open. The miniscule hairy professor struts across the room toward a small ladder near the chalkboard, an antiquated relic of the past yet the professor liked old things. His ebony claws reached for the chalk. He tapped it five times, a habit of his, a peculiar one at that. But that habit always gathered the class’ attention. They watch as he brings his small koalan body up to the podium.

“Part two ladies and gentlemen.” His voice smoothly lets out. “Can anyone care to recap us quicky on last class’ session?” A large claw raises it’s hand up before the question is concluded. His mane was glorious and fangs magnificent. Yet despite his intrepid out look his voice was frail followed by his large magnifying glasses he wore on his face.

“Ah Yes Charlie, always an eager one, do tell.” The professor opens his hand toward the “king of the jungle” student. Charlie stands proudly with notebook in claw.

“2028, scientist a G.E.M. labs, laboratory of genetics engineering modifications successfully transplant a human brain fragment in an injured dog shot in the head. Next week the dog displayed high levels of intelligence. Even deeper understanding of human speech. Such as the clear ability to discern shapes taught to it. This day was deemed Adam, the first of what we know now as Mammals. A prototype of what we see in our everyday lives. Adam-” the professor raises his hand to stop Charlie’s eager recital.

“And what were Adam’s progeny used for?” He scans the room. “Miss Granger? Do you know?” The sunset fur of Granger stood up as her white tipped tail stiffened. She gives a weary smile with her canines exposed.

“Police dogs Professor Hitch.” The answer came from a pinstriped fellow in the back of the class. His head resting on his arms as if bored of the subject.

“Thank you Zack and Miss Granger.” He tapped on the podium. “Stay focused.” Granger gave a small up sound and lifted her pen.

“Let’s move forward, 2033, who were the next mammals on the line for G.E.M. labs?” Hitch asked opening the question to the class.

“Felines.” Growled a mozzarella rodent in the front. Charlie felt the animosity in the air and covered his face with his notebook.

“Correct Mister Mario.” Hitch replied in a calming manner. “Domestic animals with high IQ became the hot trend of the 2030s. Why have a pet that can’t understand you?” The professor looked down and looked at his class with a solemn expression. “But then what happened that changed history forever?” A voice descended from on high.

“Alder Sterling stole G.E.M.s research.” The girl with the longest neck said. Hitch motioned her to continue. “Gladly Professor!” She replied gleefully. Since her stature was that of the tallest, attention was drawn to her every time she spoke. But she loved it.

“2044 was the emergence of all wild mammals.” She glances around to see if others are looking at her. Indeed they were. “Alongside intelligence, mammals were given more human qualities, inside and out.” She rolls her fingers that were supposed to be hooves. Some of the class react in response by moving their human-like hands and feet.

“Sterling was a disgruntled G.E.M. scientist who wanted to test on more animals instead of chase military or domestic profits. He went to Africa and began testing there with a small team.” She bite back the next sentence.

“That’s a good deal of backstory Miss Roxie,” the professor says with empathy. “Alder Sterling killed many African animals with his tests. A shame that such a revolutionary mind committed such cruel acts.” Hitch jumps down from his podium and grabs his chalk.

“Which leads us to today’s topic.” Hitch says while climbing his ladder and marking the green canvas. “The first Mammalian war, the first of many unfortunately.” Hitch returns to his podium book in hand. “We start on page 87.” He once again scans the room and opens his hand toward a student. “Mister Jones, why don’t you start?”

Jones’ hairless hands, short hair on his head and small body reacts by lifting his textbook.

“Sure thing Professor Hitch.”